I really enjoy solitude. It’s something I’ve always been comfortable with. I do feed off the energy of others on occasion but being happy on my own is something that I think is my ‘go to’. The last week I had on my own as I drove up from Tierra del Fuego to Buenos Aires has been absolutely wonderful.
One thing my girlfriend has noticed, probably quicker than I have, is that I absorb so much if what goes on around me, even when I try to not let it. When that energy is positive is in an incredible force for good, albeit I then probably take on too much thinking I’m invincible. Alternatively, when things aren’t going quite so well, when the energy is negative and problems abound all around me, it weighs upon me. Like a ship ploughing ahead at sea and slowly picking up barnacles and seaweed, I gradually the wind has less and less effect on my sails.
Whilst in the city, I feel the need to sit and try to do some mindfulness exercises, to think, and to calm my racing mind. And yet whilst travelling I haven’t needed to at all. Whats more, which is odd for me, I haven’t even thought about it. Yes, I have a lot going on with driving, researching, taking care of my travelling companions etc but to not even think of it speaks volumes.
There are many foreigners around me chatting away in Puerto Valdes on the Argentinian Coast, but I like sitting here writing, listening to the waves crash, watching the tide rise, watching turkey-vultures glide on the breeze, looking for orcas. Sometimes work or relationship thoughts emerge, trying to drag me back to my usual life, sometimes I even dream about the work stuff which is frustrating. But I am resolute and try to distinguish those as quick as I can, and am fortunate enough to even be able to do that when I dream. What I tell myself is: does it need to be solved now? More often than not, the answer is no. Troubles that can be solved today can probably be solved tomorrow or in a week or in a month. Concentrate on the now, enjoy the present of the present.
Writing and writing...